Hmm...when sad things happen, they become bearable if you have company..But dealing with loss alone, is like a punishment. Hardest thing. I think this is the hardest time i have ever had experienced, never felt so vulnerable and lost before.
Trying to be a do-all mommy, putting up a brave front for parents and missing husband.Things take totally new meaning.Things that i took for granted for seem like luxuries, small day to day things seem difficult.
One thing i realized, i don't have lot of 2am friends in the city i live, who are just a call away to come running..man, i must be really bad at making friends. I cannot help but try to remember if i was compassionate and ready to run to help for my friends bad time. Actually i never helped until unless asked for. Realized now, that people in distress do not always ask for help openly.
Every incident, every situation changes the way you think, look at things, this one has a very profound change.Some relationships have shown their true color, how people expect other people to be there for them and when its their turn, are nowhere to be seen...bitter truth of life.
Hopefully i can bring the strength from within to live through this tough time.they say god gives difficulties to people who are able to deal with them.I am sure, i have it somewhere in me, to deal with all this, i just have to keep searching for that strength i guess.
Trying to be a do-all mommy, putting up a brave front for parents and missing husband.Things take totally new meaning.Things that i took for granted for seem like luxuries, small day to day things seem difficult.
One thing i realized, i don't have lot of 2am friends in the city i live, who are just a call away to come running..man, i must be really bad at making friends. I cannot help but try to remember if i was compassionate and ready to run to help for my friends bad time. Actually i never helped until unless asked for. Realized now, that people in distress do not always ask for help openly.
Every incident, every situation changes the way you think, look at things, this one has a very profound change.Some relationships have shown their true color, how people expect other people to be there for them and when its their turn, are nowhere to be seen...bitter truth of life.
Hopefully i can bring the strength from within to live through this tough time.they say god gives difficulties to people who are able to deal with them.I am sure, i have it somewhere in me, to deal with all this, i just have to keep searching for that strength i guess.
